Hi there, my name is JayLee and I'm an introvert.....Okay so there really isn't a introvert's anonymous but sometimes I think that there should be. Maybe the greeting should be, I have to pretend to be an extrovert for work.
In alot of ways, myself and my friends here have created one. I've done some work in substance abuse and they say that no one can understand what recovery is really like until they have been there themselves. Being an introvert is kind of like that. You don't really understand what it's like unless you are one. Now that doesn't mean to say that there aren't times we can't (or at least I can't) pull a good imitation of a extrovert out.
I have come to think of myself as a closet introvert, at least at work. Every day, I walk out the house, and spend the drive giving myself a pep talk. My job requires extroverted tendencies for training, presentations, meeting with supervisors or external reviewers. I like nothing more when it's just me and the documentation and the processes and tests. But alas, they never leave me to that part of my job for long.
There are some of the people I know that swear I couldn't possibly be an introvert. I guess I really am a good actress after all. The on-line environment however, wow, now there is a haven. I can interact or not all I want and talk to people all I want all with out really interacting or talking to anyone at all. I mean really, typing this blog, I'm curled up on the couch with some earl gray tea (hot of course) watching my favorite crime drama.
Is there any better life then that? Well, maybe if I were on a beach front with a drink and good diving but that is a wish for another time.....
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I, too, must sometimes put on the extrovert costume and play for an audience that pays for my supper. I'm grateful, however, that it does not make up a majority of my job. It's one thing to put on a show for an hour or so here and there, but it's a completely different thing to have to do it day in a day out. I don't envy you, but I hope you hang in there. Perhaps, you should take steps toward having a career/job in which you don't have to always perform. Easier said than done, huh? Anyway, we innies understand and feel your pain.
ReplyDeleteGreat post JayLee. When people find out I'm an introvert, they're invariably surprised.
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